Two weeks left in school. All i want is to be done. I have so many projects i would rather be doing that i don’t have time for right now. If you don’t know, i’m graduating in art education. I’m student teaching right now and i have mixed feelings. I could see this teaching thing really working out but honestly, right now i don’t enjoy being here. I love art so much but i’m struggling getting these kids to see it the way i do. It’s really easy for me to get down on the experience when middle schoolers act like, well, middle schoolers. I can’t blame them, i felt the same way. I didn’t want to be in school when i was 13. What gets me the most is when they are ugly to each other. If they would quit picking on each other and focus long enough to see how fun it is to be creative we might get somewhere. I know that i’m a new teacher and i should give myself some time to figure this thing out, but i get so much energy from working on my other projects it makes me wonder why i spend so much time in a seemingly unhealthy environment. I graduated from middle school, why am i back? The other thing i have to realize is that things will change when i have my own classroom, right now i’m a guest and even though i’m trying to set the mood and create a comfortable environment it’s not my room.
So much to learn.