a dear friend of mine called me out on needing to be more sociable with visitors realizing that this was most peoples first visit to the park and many’s first or only interaction with art or artists. It’s easy for me to sigh when someone asks if we have air conditioning but i have to remember that even though this is my daily routine it’s very foreign and strange to people and it’s natural that they would have questions. I think i’ve been doing better. If not, at least i’m more conscious of it and i’m quick to catch myself from being grumpy.
But maybe a little grumpiness is OK, i am a zoo animal after all. It’s been interesting how people interact from far away. If i’m sitting on my porch in the right spot no one can see me, but i can hear them talking and most of the time they are wondering if they will catch a glimpse of the crazy artist. Most of them shout or yelp even, like a kid taping on the glass of an aquarium trying to get a reaction. It drives me crazy when they are rude about it but everyonce in a while someone understands what i feel like. Most of the time if there are people on the beach i’ll do them the common courtesy of waving. Some say hello, and i return the favor but don’t try to carry on a conversation. Yesturday a group of ladies said, “hello, michael” . I waved, they said “sorry you feel like a zoo animal.”
It made me realize that most of the people don’t deserve a calloused response and are well, meaning. I’m going to take this on a case by case basis, but it’s nice to remember.