Last night as I was blogging on the iPad, a water spider lowered himself down from the ceiling on to the iPad. I wondered…how many spiders crawl all over me at night? Do they crawl in my mouth? Do they bite me in my sleep? Oh no!
I have never been a prissy girl, but spiders sometimes give me the “heebie jeebies”. They are quite fascinating and intriguing but there is something about their movement and the big visible fangs that just creep me out a little. There is such tension between fascination and fear which i find interesting. I know there will ALWAYS be spiders on the island and I am okay with that. I have decided to coexist with them instead of killing them, ESPECIALLY since they eat the smaller, more annoying insects which sometimes make their way on the island. Still at night when I am laying down trying to sleep, every little thing I feel on my skin whether its my hair or my sheets, I think there is something crawling on me. If I was just at home in my apartment, I would never think about these kinds of things, but being out on the lake, I am more aware of my surroundings.
One frequently asked question this week has been, “What do you miss the most?”
Personally, I miss music. I miss listening to my iPod all day while I am working in the studio. I miss Beethoven, Radiohead, the Knife, Mozart, Islands, Beck, and so much more! I have about 65 gigabytes of music to constantly entertain me, but on the island I have the screeching cicadas, squawking herons, splashing fish, buzzing flies, peeping birds, roaring airplanes, humming traffic, and laughing children. I completely love this environment and I am completely embracing the “nature” around me, but I DO look forward to listening to music when I get back.
I also miss being able to leave freely whenever I want. I am dedicated to the project, so I love what I am doing and I am dedicated to staying, but I am a free-spirit and I love to travel immediately upon impulse. I also love social events, so it is hard missing parties. Wanderlust.
Even though there are things I miss about being “home”, I am so grateful for this experience and would not trade it for anything.
I am halfway through my week of solitude and I am having a fantastic time of self-exploration. 3.5 more days to go!