My original thought was that this experience on the island would be a relaxing retreat where i could cleanse my mind and be free from distractions. I’ve been feeling uncomfortable because i have not been getting my solitude because every time i move there are a crowd of people watching to see what i am going to do. There has been the recognition that we are pieces of art and a part of the exhibition but i never understood what that meant until now.
There is always a crowd watching the island from all over the lake. When i step out onto the porch i can hear people say “look! i see him, there he is, what’s he doing?” They scream hello, i wave and they say, “he waved, did you see it, he waved!”
It’s not a celebrity feeling, i feel more like an animal at the zoo. At first this upset me because i really wanted some spiritual time off, but now i’m into embracing my inner zoo animal. It means i can act as weird as i want and it’s ok because i’m island man. I’ve taken to scurrying away from crowds and not letting myself feel bad for not interacting with everyone. they are stumbling into my “natural” habitat and much like the mighty mountain goat, i can not be expected to preform on the hour. Most of the time i’m still normal mike, but i’m starting to get into the performance side of this experience.